I’ve watched The Office all the way through more times than I can count. I love it, I love every single episode– well, not Scott’s Tots. IT IS SO CRINGEY. But a show so good gets a pass on one unwatchable episode.

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This above picture of Michael Scott defines my actual emotions while watching that episode.

ANYWAY one episode that always gets to me is “Beach Games.” I would say spoiler alert… but the episode aired in 2007 and you’ve had plenty of time. This is the episode where the office has beach day and Michael is testing the group to see who would make a good replacement for him if he were to receive a promotion at corporate.

One of these tests is a coal walk. He literally wants his employees to walk across burning hot coals. Naturally, nobody really wants to do it. Dwight, of course, does it in his passion to be the manager of Dunder Mifflin. It doesn’t go great, to say the least.

After the drama dies down, and the group has left the idea of the coal walk behind, Pam decides that she’s going to do it. After doing so, she comes over to the group feeling confident and brave. She straight up says what is on her mind.

She confronts the group on why they didn’t come to her art show, and confesses that she cancelled her wedding because of Jim, and how she misses him. IN FRONT OF HIS GIRLFRIEND. Which maybe isn’t the coolest thing to do BUT SHE WAS FINALLY BRAVE. She got everything off her chest.

Everytime I watch this episode I feel so inspired to go spill my guts, and I never did. I would second guess myself and I tell myself, “it’s just a TV show… it won’t turn out so well for me.” But… here’s the thing… I don’t think Pam did it for any certain result. She just said what needed to be said.
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I did my own version of the coal walk. I spilled my guts. I made myself completely vulnerable to someone. It was hard. I hoped for the best, and expected the worst. The immediate reaction I got was positive, but I still don’t really know what is going to happen. But that’s okay. I went into with the mindset of just needing to get what I was feeling off of my chest– no matter what that meant, and I finally did it. I had been holding on to those feelings for months and I finally decided that I couldn’t do that anymore– regardless of what that meant.

Making yourself vulnerable is hard, but I’m proud of myself for laying all of my cards out on the table, and I hope that if you haven’t yet… you’ll do your own version of the coal walk, too.

2 thoughts on “My Coal Walk

  1. You should be proud! And I am too! It is so difficult to open yourself up sometimes but when you do, it feels great. Even more so when the person you’re sharing anything with is receptive 💛 I’m glad you had a positive outcome. I’m sending you all of the positive vibes I have

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